one day down the drain
Feb. 23rd, 2004 07:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
soul_cake_duckdamn.
i had a plan. a really good one. i was going to be productive today. i was gonna get up early, shower, eat - and study. not get distracted by the computer or anything. no, i was going to work.
somewhere along the line though, i dont know. i blame my mum. she was all cleaning everything, and then you know. she distracted me. thats it. anyway. i feel bad. i spent my entire afternoon doing fuckall on the computer. but ehm. tomorrow. i'll work tomorrow.
and then. i dont know. after spending all that time, i feel like, okay. what else is there to do. so like, i wanna go do something else, but what? i know i won't be able to study right now. im a morning person. if i dont do it then, then there's really no point in me trying to do it now. and then. reading. i have books to read. i should read them. but i cant really concentrate. ive been thinking about maybe trying to write something. but i highly doubt i will. ive never actually written a story voluntarily. its always been for school. and i dont know. i always feel like - whats the point. i get what i need from reading other peoples really great fics, why do i need to add my 2 cents? cause its not like my 2 cents is going to actually be useful or anything. but uhm. its more of a challenge for me. im thinking i should try something new. i dont know. i dont really get to write that many expressive stories for school, and when i do they are always like. i have certain things i seem to do. they arent necessarily always the same or whatever, but i just feel like maybe i should try something different. or maybe just apply what i do to a certain person/fandom? hm. ideas.
anyway. im just feeling kinda restess i guess. damn dr pepper.
i had a plan. a really good one. i was going to be productive today. i was gonna get up early, shower, eat - and study. not get distracted by the computer or anything. no, i was going to work.
somewhere along the line though, i dont know. i blame my mum. she was all cleaning everything, and then you know. she distracted me. thats it. anyway. i feel bad. i spent my entire afternoon doing fuckall on the computer. but ehm. tomorrow. i'll work tomorrow.
and then. i dont know. after spending all that time, i feel like, okay. what else is there to do. so like, i wanna go do something else, but what? i know i won't be able to study right now. im a morning person. if i dont do it then, then there's really no point in me trying to do it now. and then. reading. i have books to read. i should read them. but i cant really concentrate. ive been thinking about maybe trying to write something. but i highly doubt i will. ive never actually written a story voluntarily. its always been for school. and i dont know. i always feel like - whats the point. i get what i need from reading other peoples really great fics, why do i need to add my 2 cents? cause its not like my 2 cents is going to actually be useful or anything. but uhm. its more of a challenge for me. im thinking i should try something new. i dont know. i dont really get to write that many expressive stories for school, and when i do they are always like. i have certain things i seem to do. they arent necessarily always the same or whatever, but i just feel like maybe i should try something different. or maybe just apply what i do to a certain person/fandom? hm. ideas.
anyway. im just feeling kinda restess i guess. damn dr pepper.
